A Journey Along The Edge of Pleasure and Pain

Today Feb 19th i get to celebrate my beautiful girls Birthday
so HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY

I love you so much!

for you KW folks who wish to share your love with My remarkable girl
we are going to be food hopping tonight

7pm Starting at Niko Niko Sushi for some yummy appetizers

8pm heading to AfroDine Ethiopian restraunt located on King Street near Ottawa

9:00-9:30 we will be at Symposium in uptown Waterloo for some yummy desserts and drinks

hope to see you around!
(if you need more directions just ask)

Do not seek the because -
in love there is no because,
no reason,
no explanation,
no solutions.
Anais Nin

This is My love letter to you. For all eyes to read, because in you I have eyes to see. I stand here drinking strong coffee remembering the taste of your kiss on My lips from the morning before I went to work. Your kiss electrifies My sense, wakes up My spirit. You are My morning coffee.

I love you like no other because you have loved Me like no other. Your love is fierce, passionate, driving and hungry. My love for you matches that emotion in a quieter and deeper way. I am the eternal tide to your crashing store, the ever flow river to your white rapids.

Our two souls found each other across the great divide. Finding each other when we needed it most, more than our hearts, or our heads truly knew. The here and now we are together as we are meant to be, with the knowledge that even with the passion and love we share there is higher levels we can reach together. You are the wings with which I can soar.

Change happens around us, within us every moment of every day, some changes we notice some are so subtle that they are only seen long after when they build and echo from somewhere deep with in us. You have been a catalyst, a force within and without that has changed Me. I have seen a metamorphosis in Me, I have looked deep within Myself and I know it is you who bring Me this strength. Love is never easy, but we know that nothing that was easy ever had any lasting value. And you are the one thing in this world I value most, mi amore. mia'more.

You are Mine in every sense, I need you, I need to possess you.

I love you


Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength;
loving someone deeply gives you courage.
Lao Tzu



*This ones for you*
We waste time looking for the perfect lover,
instead of creating the perfect love.
Tom Robbins

many of you may have noticed i have been far more silent online here of late over the past few months, not posting, not commenting (yet still reading as often as i get the chance).  Late August my life changed dramatically from any form i had known it to be in the past.

As many of you know <lj user=sexahlilthing> and i have been together for many moons, in man ways much longer than we have even known each other, and August 24th she moved here from the southern US to the Great White North to be with me.  My life from that date has been forever changed.  i have learned more about myself, about the truest meaning of life, about love, longing, hate, lust, desire and passion than all my years before.  in those sparse few months i have become closer to being a Man, the Man i wish to be than any other time in my lifetime.

i have seen Love from uncovered eyes for what truly feels like the first time.  This ladys and gentlemen is WHAT it is to be loved, to love, to be IN love.

all may have not been smooth sailing along this journey over the last few months, infact i have experienced some of my painful moments during this time, but that all pales when i can wake up beside her look at her sleeping form and kiss her good bye before i go to work.  for the first time in my life i know what complete unconditional love feels like, without limits, without borders.

i am happy, i am filled with a joy that lights my soul afire
im with the person i wish to spend the rest of my life with, the person i want to grow old with
having <lj user=sexahlilthing> in my life is the greatest blessing i have ever experienced... and as the book mark she got me for Christmas says... i truly am 'Blessed'

i truly hope everyone one day can experience all that i am feeling
to my mia
to the love of my life,
the love of lifetimes
i adore you

i perhaps have come to an impass... perhaps i am simply over thinking things
in my day today life i have found my Dominance is, if not lacking, at least not as strong as i wish it to be or could be
i find myself fustrated with this but yet unable to puzzle out what i need to do, the direction i need to take

im asking you what in your day today life re-affirms your Dominance both within yourself and in your relationship?
what in your relationship re-asserts your Dominance, both physically and mentally?

i am blissfully happy in my relationship with my little one... but i KNOW there is another level that can be reached in it... and i am fustrated by simply not knowing how to reach it... that is am lacking something some key tool or wisdom

your thoughts would be greatly appreciated